Just Blowing Off Some Steam

I can tell when God is about to do a great thing in my life. The devil starts working overtime to distract me / to dscourage me / to bring me back to the shell I broke out of. Get off of me in the name of Jesus!!!!!! I will walk into my destiny. I will not be dicouraged because if God be for me who can stand against me. I will not go back into my shell. for whom the Son has set free is truly free indeed. I will press toward the mark for the prize of the High calling which is in christ Jesus. just blowing off some steam

I am because He is

Tithes and offering. God said if you do this, "he will open up the windows of heaven and pour you out a blessing so that you would not have room enough to recieve". He also said " These blessings will come upon you and overtake you. Wow, that's a powerful truth. I did not understand if it was literal or something to portray spiritual truths. As you know from my previous post I have struggled with social issues, financially, and what feels like every aspect of my life. But whatever state I found myself in, I was faithful to tithing and offfering as much as I was able to. During the times I couldnt give God showed me were I went wrong. And because of my faithfulness in giving, God has shown himself faithful to his promises. I am blessed; I am the head and not the tail; I am above and not beneath; I am blessed in the city, I am blessed in the field; I am blessed when I come and when I go. The fruit of my body are blessed. "The Lord shall cause my enemies that rise up against me to be smitten before my face: they shall come out against me one way, and flee before me seven ways"

You have to go through the surgery

How do you know God can perform miracles if you never been in an impossible situation or if you never had your back against the wall. You have to go thru the set up of a miracel in order for the mirace to happen. I wanted God to heal my daughter, but without the surgery. I went several places to get a second opinion. I went to a chiropracter only to end up right back at the same doctor who told me she needed surgery. Sometimes you have to go through the surgery in order to experiance God's miracle. We look for God to do so much. We look for God to keep us from going through. But sometimes In order to reign with Christ, we must fellowship with him in his suffering. If we want to experience God's miracle, we have to be in an humanly impossible position in order for God to step in and show his possability. "ye though I walk through the valley of death I will fear no evil for you are with me." You have to go through the surgery.

Am i a good example for my girls

Have you ever notice how closely your child pays attention to you. More than you can ever imagine. I constantly ask God to give me wisdom in dealing with my girls. I have a typical teenager, a 6 year old who constantly asks me "why she get to do .......... and I don't" or "how come only me have to .......... and nobody else." I have a 4 year old who is still in the clinging stage and follows closely behind her younger, older, sister. All of them in there different stages know me better than I know myself most of the time. It's amazing the things they understand. "Mom you always say your going to do something and you never do it." says my 6 year old. I don't want to be a hypocrit in my daughters eyes. I know they see my short comings, But do they see my strengths also? Lord am I being a good enough example for my girls. Are my actions showing them how to live a christian life. Because I can talk to them until i'm blue in the face. If my actions don't line up with what I'm saying, my words mean nothing. Lord help me be a good example for my girls. Help me display confidence in myself so they will learn to have confidence in themselves no matter what anyone says to them. This is my prayer as a mom with 3 girls.

Push pass the fear

Fear. What are you afraid of? Success. That's uncharted territory for me. I get all the connections lined up All the paperwork in front of me Obsticales are out of my way just go for it. Anxiety steps in Feelings of being overwhelmed Brain over crowded Got to pull on breaks Stop!!!!!! No don't stop Push, as though your life depends on it Because it does Push pass the anxiety, Pass the overwhelming feeling, Push pass the fear. Your not Pushing alone. "I can do all things through Christ which gives me strength" phillipians 4:13

Divorce

I've heard a lot of people talk about divorce feeling like a tearing or ripping of the heart. I filed for my divorce Februauy 15, 2013. When I left the office, I felt so liberated, I could not stop praiseing God. There was no riping or tearing; Just freedom. I'm not in any hurry to start anything new. Im just glad to have dead weight off my back. I do feel bad I wasted my first experience of marriage on that man. God reminded me on the day I left my husband "I did not join you together, and i am not in this marriage." If God is not in this marriage then im not either.

Struggle

I've struggled for most of my life. It's hard to get rid of an old friend. Struggle has been an old family friend. It was passed down to my mother;old faithful till the end. Then she passed it down to me; old faithful til. . . .I was in the process of passing him down to my children until. . . I started my prayer to God telling him all about struggle; giving struggles much attention in my prayers. Then I heard say, "struggle is not your friend. He's been holding you back for far to long. Everything bless you, you don't recognize my blessing because struggle camouflage it to look like him. Look again at everything I have done for you. Why are you still struggling. Look at the gifts and talents and the connections to go along with those gifts & talents. I have given you all the tools you need to get away from struggle. Now is the time to let him go. Ephesians 2:2-7 Struggle was your past, but prosperity is your now and from now on." Says the Lord.

attention

Who needs my attention the most? My 14 year old. She's in the hospital recovering from back surgery. My help now needs my extra motherly attention. No children under 16 are allowed in the hospital. Now what do I do with my 4 year old and my 6 year old? Thank God for best friends. "Anything you want me to do for you just let me know". Sure do (not an empty gesture).can you watch my kids for me?" My God is an on time God yes he is.

Believing in God again

Just before my mother passed, I put my complete trust in God that he would heal my mom and restore her strength. Even up until they put the tub down her throat. I said "God, I know you can still perform miracles. So now would be a good time to show yourself mighty, show yourself strong". Well, needless to say what the the out come was. Now yet again I am faced with believing God again to heal. "Lord I can't handle the death of my child, is it in your will to heal her back of scoliosis? Two days before surgery. Still believing God to bring her through the surgery. You didn't save my mother when I believed you for it, why should I believe you for my daughter? Because there is no one else who can claim to have everything under his control. He was in control when my mother passed, and he is in control now ready to bring her through this surgery. Amen.

When there'sno go to women

being a single mom, there is  no husband to lean on for back-up. Next in line, mommy dearest. But what do you  when your go to person is not there?  who do  i trust with my  girls when i can't always take them with me? who will cherish and care for my girls while im at work and there is no school? Who will respect and protect them?  In all my ways acknowledge  Lord, and he will direct my path. God knows the hearts of people.  So i can trust him to lead me in the right direction. concerning my girls. God loves them even more than i do.  So i know they will be safe  whatever arrangements make for them.

God forgave me twice

I got two baby daddies and I'm still a christian. Now how did that pull that off?  I asked God to forgive me twice for not realizing he is all the man I need. 1John 1:9 From now on I will delight myself in you Lord. I will wait on you to send me my soul's mate. Lord please give me grace and wisdom to raise my girls and to train them in the way that they should go. Let me be the example they need to show them how to be respected, strong, and independent young Ladies.  And where ever I lack, Lord you be strong. That's how I did it.

This week was very interesting. Since I work at a college, my first day back to work was January 22 since Christmas. Lovely being off while the children are at school. Went back to work Tuesday and got a call from my middle child's school nurse (6 years old). "Your baby has a temperature of 99. Someone needs to come and pick her up". " Ok i'm on my way. i really didn't want to return back to work anyway. Now i can use sick time. :-)  She stays home the next day and goes to school the day after. Then i return to work sick also. Thursday get called home again to pick up the same child. this time withe a fever of 102. As of today all 3 girls and mom are recovering from this cold bug.  God is working even in this.